Chris H. – March 2013

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I came to The River Source because I was out of options and tired. I have used every resource I had, money, relationships, and patience. I had nothing left to take from this world and I could not bear being the person I was any longer. I was tired of my life. Tired isn’t a strong enough word. I was broken. I chose The River Source because it was suggested by my best friend who had 18 months sober. I did no research, I didn’t know where I was going, didn’t have any idea of what this place or the 12-steps were about, and I honestly did not care. I was at the point where I needed help and was desperate enough to accept anything put before me. My experience here was revolutionary. I have had a spiritual awakening that I did not think I was capable of. I have learned a lot about why I am broken and what needs to change in me. I have learned that action is the only way to change these things, and unless I do something, everything I learned is for not. The River Source has given me a chance to live. It is up to me to do the work. You have given me the tools to build a ladder out of this hole and save my own life if I choose. The River Source has taught me honesty is the path of righteousness and the way to the light. It is much easier to be honesty than to build a web of lies and deceit. I have learned how to open up with those around me where before I absolutely wouldn’t have. I have learned that helping others is one of the most gratifying experiences that can be felt. I am still learning how to feel, but I am on the right path. I am nowhere near fixed and I cannot be as long as I have an ego. It is not easy, but certainly simple. I am trying to seek humility in all my affairs, to help because someone needs help, and not because I want something. To love without being loved. It is beautiful. I would absolutely recommend this this place to anyone seeking recovery. I truly believe it is a place of miracles. I’ve heard from many people that this place is much better than other recoveries. I just want to thank the staff from the bottom of my heard for the compassion they’ve shown me. They truly walk their talk. Rusty, Sharmyn, Kim, Chris, Zach, Tara, Roxanne, Larson, Jerica, Tabitha, Nate, TK, Brad, Kathy, Sharon, Dr. Dave, medical staff, Phil Colleen, John Lindsay, Liz, and every one of the clients who has been here and who is still here. They have all been instrumental in my recovery and I have learned a great deal of wisdom and about myself from each of them. I cannot express how grateful I am to have been given this chance at life. I absolutely enjoy learning something from everyone here. I do not believe in smart of dumb people, just different people with different experiences, each with something to offer if we just listen. Thank you all and thank God for giving me an opportunity to walk out of darkness and into his light.

– Chris H.