Chuvak M. – July 2012

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I came to The River Source completely out of self-defense, because I was dying out there. Thirty-three days before I came to The Source I started detoxing at home. My only intention being to stay clean for lent. My life was so miserable and chaotic I figured if I just got clean for lent everything and everybody would leave me alone. The world would be glitter and rainbows. Me and my kids could be happy, but nothing changed. My life was still chaos. At 22 days I relapsed. I was powerless and I needed help. I reached out and ended up here. Thank god for that miracle, this was the first of many. I owe those who brought me here, the clients, and staff my life. The Source became my home; my original plan to stay just for 30 days has long since disappeared. As I write I have been here now for 105 days. It went by too fast; I cherish every moment. The Source gave me a solution. A living breathing solution. It gave me hope when I had none. I have seen many miracles while here but the greatest are the sense of peace I hold in my heart and today, the relationship with my higher power that keeps me sane and the trust of my children that I didn’t even know I had lost in active addiction. If you are struggling with alcoholism or addiction, if you are hopeless and don’t see how it’s possible to feel any other way, if you’re just trying to stay sober for 30 or maybe get your family off your back; then you’re in the right place. I’m glad you’re here. Just stay.

Chuvak M. 7/9/12