The river source saved my life. It sounds cheesy but I came in so broken that I thought death was the only other option other than treatment. Here I realized that I was such a liar that I believed the lies I told myself for countless years. I thought I was normal but after admitting that I was powerless over my addiction, I came to the shocking conclusion that I am lucky to even be writing this today. A 3-5 gram a day heroin and meth addiction is the polar opposite of normal. I discovered who I am here and I am far from a worthless person, heroin and meth took my soul from me and held me hostage. The River Source introduced me to the 12 steps and here I found a higher power. I have my soul back; my little brother has his big brother back. I’ve been into jails and institutions and death was not too far from me. Acceptance is the answer to all of my problems, put in the work and you can have your life saved too.